"Free and critical minds can emerge only by a return to the source-the primary sources. A free and critical mind takes nothing for granted and is not intimidated by "authorities" who frequently may be more confused than the general public. Free and critical minds seek truth without chauvinism or shame." - Dr. Asa G. Hilliard III (1)

Saturday, May 30, 2015

How Contradictions Drove Me Crazy
Unity Consciousness #279


One day I woke up and realized I was a different gender than some humans. I then gathered and compiled a packet of thinking about my gender. I read and reread everything until memorized. I internalized this thinking until I automatically knew what to think and do in terms of gender.

I continued to realize things about myself. As I did, each time I gathered and compiled a packet of thinking to explain things to me. I had a packet on skin color, country of birth, national origin, religion, ethnicity, culture, the part of the country I was in, the type of work I did, and on and on and on.

I realized there was enough information to create a packet of thinking for everything about people. This was also possible for everything people did. Each packet contained information on what made that category different from others, but never did any packet explain the ways in which each category was the same. There were many variations of packets about the same category.

Due to the process of logic, before I even finished reading the second packet of thinking, I realized, in many ways, the thinking in the second packet didn't match or complement the thinking in the first packet. The same thing was true for all other packets.

In order to continue thinking in all sorts of contradictory ways, when faced with contradictions, I decided each time which side of the contradiction I would follow. Though this was acceptable to me, it was not sensible to me. Even so, I kept on living this way, allowing contradictory thinking to drive my behavior.