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Song Audio: Everything I WantedSong Lyrics: Everything I Wanted
Self Speaks & True Image Responds
Self speaks first. This self is the current view of the self she is. This current view of self is explaining the dream view of self, the self she thinks she wants to be.When the current view of self wakes up out of the dream, she is there lying in bed by herself and is talking to herself according to her current view. She wakes up back to her present reality and says that despite having everything I wanted in the dream, I woke up and found you with me. You, the same old self, the same ole me who does not have everything I wanted, is still with me. So the dream is not real and is kinda like a nightmare to torture me and remind me of feeling inadequate, overwhelmed, anxiety-ridden and not having everything I wanted.
In this same dream in another scene I thought I could fly so I stepped off the Golden Gate Bridge and nobody cried or even noticed. People were there, but there were focused on doing whatever they were doing.
So the current view of self wants to feel special and cared for, but does not. She is in the midst of many, lonely but not alone. Her spirit wants to soar as before in the journey and unfolding process of beingness, before becoming imprisoned into narrow understandings of self. So she imagines doing something grand and big by flying, and certainly then people will notice, especially if she flies off the grand structure called the Golden. She does not fly because she needs other people to believe in her more than she understands that she mostly needs belief in self.
The Golden Gate Bridge is merely a metaphor to show that it takes a leap of faith to do what you believe you can do.
Then the true image of self says, And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you, you don't wanna lie here with yourself, but you can learn to be comfortable with yourself and learn to appreciate yourself and care for yourself. So if only I could change the way that you see yourself
If I could change the way that you see yourself, then you wouldn't wonder why you keep hearing, “They don't deserve you"
Who is saying “they don't deserve you?”
The true image.
The true image is saying that I keep telling you they don't deserve you but you won't listen so if I could just change the way you see yourself then everything else would change and you would realize have everything you wanted in your true image.
This goes on constantly which makes one day of these thoughts go by so slowly that one day feels like 365 days. But despite this daily dream-nightmare scenario, I don't say anything because everybody needs me and I don't wanna let 'em down. This person feels stuck and moving through life in quicksands and sinking and not crying out for help but instead continuing to be accommodating to other people's needs.
Those calling her weak were not other people, but rather the different parts of self-doubt and what she imagines people are saying. She is harder on herself than others actually are, and if they are, then once again, they don't deserve you.
Then the true image of self repeats the god's honest truth. You gotta learn to listen to the true voice among many voices. This will keep you from self-inflicting their views on you. I know you're not used to learning who you are, where you came from and why you are here, but, you can learn to. And you can learn to “see” yourself in the true image of your physical self, your mental self, your emotional self and your spirit self. These things have to change in the climate of self in order for things to change for the better.
Despite encouragement from the true image of self, the current view of self wonders if it would live life the same way if it knew then what it knows now. The current view of self also wonders, if people knew that everything they said I would take it to heart, what would they say? Would they be more careful, kind and considerate of who I am or would they take advantage and try to make me even more in their view of who I need to be?
In this message, I have personified self as she, but the true image of self is both she and he, female and male. This is true of all creations because the true image of self is the true image of spirit-soul, The Supreme Being, the one who is two and many, hidden and revealed, finite and infinite, darkness and light, time and space (matter, waters).
This makes the true image more complete that the self we perceive ourselves to be and more complete than the reflection in the various forms of imbalanced mirrors we use to assess ourselves.
It is appropriate for the true image of self to speak as the chorus of this song because the true image is Horus who is a chorus of many elemental souls of life.
Written by Billie Eilish, Finneas O'Connell First release by Billie Eilish (November 14, 2019) https://secondhandsongs.com/performance/1099982
Released March 9, 2020 by JP Cooper
There are other explanations as to the meaning of this song, none of which I have read until after this writing. What we know is that more than one thing can be true. We also know the meaning that evolves within us is for us, and Initiates. What we sorta know is that whether or not we are true to self as we live life, it has universal application. Thus a song has individual meaning to the writer and simultaneously has specific meanings for others and meanings that reveal universal truths.By the way, I thought the singer JP Cooper was a black woman based on voice quality and intonations.
Two Of Many Key Points: Getting everything you want in this life might simultaneously be a dream and a nightmare. How can that be?
Also, when you live in a society, thus the masses are significantly miseducated, too much emphasis on what other people think and what other people want and what other people need, will lead you astray from your optimal destinypurposes, thus delay this lifetime's progress towards your spirit-soul becoming one again with the Creator.
In other words, things will usually go wickety wack when looking for acceptance, validation and self-estimation outside of self.
